let's build a home

2003-09-16 - 2:24 p.m.

right now i'm listening to the sugarcubes, 'life's too good.' it's the first time i've popped a cd other than fleetwood mac into a cd player since the concert.

i feel like that concert changed my life. like, i feel different. and not just when i hear fleetwood mac, though the feeling is strongest then.

if i could find my old keyboard i could actually work on my fleetwood mac cover. it came to me as i was driving home that the fleetwood mac song i would most like to cover is 'everywhere,' and here's where i talk about the band some more and explain why i chose that song: lindsey buckingham's songs are good. i just like listening to them. they're just good, solid songs. christine mcvie's songs are more pop-oriented, more keyboards and such. and then stevie nicks's songs are more organic, more magical. i feel the closest connection with stevie's songs, naturally, being of the floaty variety myself. but i chose 'everywhere,' a christine mcvie song, because it's not dark or mythical or a huge well of emotions. it's just sweet and simple and innocent. the song speaks to two pure human urges: companionship and exploration. she doesn't say, 'i want to be with you always, our love is eternal, we will last forever,' or anything of the sort. she simply says, 'i want to be with you everywhere.' what could be a truer declaration of love, felt at its peak, its strongest moment, than that one sentence? 'i want to be with you everywhere.' it's so flawless, so shining and pure. it's a childlike statement, made before children learn to lie. it's looking at the situation and simply speaking truth. not eternal truth or even future hopes, simply the utmost truth at that moment.

i think that jack white would approve.

meanwhile, 'fucking in rhythm & sorrow' is the sugarcubes song i'd most like to cover, for none of the reasons listed above. it's just super fun. on my last drive home prior to this one i almost threw my voice out by singing (screaming) that song several times in a row.

talked to krafchik again last night. i like this 'we're going to keep in touch this time. no, really, we are,' thing. she said that i should move to baltimore. i said that in a year, who knows where i'll be. i always did like the aquarium. she was also looking at arizona, which i'm more inclined to, though i don't really know why. i just want to be everywhere and nowhere at once. i don't just want my cake to eat, too, i want pie, cupcakes, and cobbler, not to mention the ice cream on top.

random thought: i liked italian food so much more after i started drinking wine with it.

i've been kinda sorta debating going back to school. for anything, really. continuing my women's studies, or exploring other types of literature, perhaps. i'm going to make t-shirts that say: jobs suck. stay in school. 'cause that's the bloody truth, brother. i kind of envy those characters in college movies who are in their third sophomore year at college. funny thing is, i thought i was taking my time. now i know that four and a half years is nothin'. why are we in such a hurry to get through school, anyway? seven out of ten college graduates can't get a job in the baby bush economy, so why bother? why the fuck shouldn't we take seven years to get through undergrad school then move back in with our parents? what kind of bright future do we have staring us in the face, anyhow? maybe i sound like a pessimist, but goddamnit, that's how i feel. get a shitty job or stay in school. those are your options.

i want to be trent on 'daria.' i want to be will in 'about a boy.' i can find tons of things to occupy my time, just nothing that makes me money and makes me happy.

i'm starting a band. as of right now. i am in a band. my band. i'm the only member right now, but that will change.

and, yeah. and stuff. make some noise. fuck the man.